Oh, and I am so excited to be back in the ownership of a pink laptop...but you can bet I'm not leaving it in the car for ONE SECOND! I hope to get a new Bible this trip, too! And you know a trip to Whole Foods is on my list! Have a great New Years everybody! Stay safe!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Oh, and I am so excited to be back in the ownership of a pink laptop...but you can bet I'm not leaving it in the car for ONE SECOND! I hope to get a new Bible this trip, too! And you know a trip to Whole Foods is on my list! Have a great New Years everybody! Stay safe!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Here's my big girl with the first cut!
She looks stressed out in this picture! But she just didn't want to get water sprayed in her eyes!
The finished product...lovely, lovely big girl Katie!
Sunday, December 28, 2008
I got up this morning and incorporated two of my favorite things: running and Desperate Housewives. My mom got me a DVD box set of Season 4 so I popped it in this morning and ended up watching like 2 1/2 episodes on my 10-mile run. It was wonderful. Not only to have a great run, but to watch one of my fave shows while I'm doing it! The episode I finished on was the one where Lynette's anti-nausea drugs weren't working during her chemo so her mom secretly used some "alternative methods" for medicinal purposes and baked it into brownies so she would "feel better!" It cracked me up! Needless to say, she seemed to feel much better! Ha! It gave me a good laugh!
Our trip to STL was good...quick, but good. I like that an echo is probably the easiest tests I've had. You just have to lay there. And turns out that the lady doing the test is a 2-year breast cancer survivor and she was full of wisdom and encouragement. It's so awesome how God continues to put these people in my path to lift my spirits and keep me strong! Hallelujah LORD! We don't have official results yet, those will come at my chemo appt this Friday. The tech said it looked about the same as before, but a cardiologist has to read it of course. I continue to believe that the results are going to be great! I'm Believing God! (Shout out to those also doing the "Believing God" Bible study by Beth Moore!!)
There is nothing going on here today. My hubby took the boys out for the day and Katie and I are here just enjoying our girls' day and quiet house! We took the tree and all the Christmas decorations down yesterday so there isn't even any work for us to do! Yay! I hope everybody else has a good and relaxing Sunday!
Thursday, December 25, 2008
The kids were up around 7, we managed to keep them in our room until 730am but then it was a free for all! I hate that it doesn't last long...it seems that after only a few minutes we go from Santa's wonderland in the middle of the living room to ultimate destruction as everybody wades through paper and boxes. But it was wonderful! Then we spent the rest of the morning getting things ready for our next destination.
Now we are home sweet home, resting and relaxing...it feels so good. Now I'm going to go for this evening and go to bed early, we have to leave the house at 730am for STL for a repeat echocardiogram. Please say a prayer for my heart that it is strong and healthy. I believe God that He will make this test result come back perfect and I give Him all the praise and glory for taking care of me and always watching over me. He is so good!
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
"But the angel said to them, 'Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in swaddling cloths and lying in a manger.' Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
We are having yet another spell of bad weather today. It started icing early this morning and now everything is covered in a thin sheet of glaze. It's very slippery out there! My hubby had to call off work for the day and we are all hunkered down here watching movies and waiting for it to warm up, which it's supposed to do this afternoon thank goodness. The weather man said it should melt the ice fairly quickly...I hope so!! We have plans this evening to have a birthday dinner for my little brother, he will be 22 tomorrow. And since his birthday always gets crowded with Christmas, we are celebrating tonight. We usually just give him a card and money, but I'm getting creative (or ornery!) and thinking about giving him a big box of diapers and baby supplies because he and his girlfriend are having a baby in June. Is that a little too rotten of me?! I think it would be funny! My mom may not appreciate it, but...... I don't know, I haven't decided yet what I will do. We'll see!
Have a great day before Christmas Eve ya'll!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
- God is in control - I love the song by Twila Paris and have sang it over and over to myself the last three months, since being diagnosed with breast cancer.
- God is gracious and strong - Isaiah 40:31 reminds us that "those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
- God can be trusted - "God doesn't give us what we can handle, He helps us handle what we have been given." We must trust and obey Him, for His will is perfect.
- God is love - Lamentations 3:22-23 says, "Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning." Praise God that He loves us so much that He sees us through the dark times in order to have another chance to give it our best shot!
- God will provide - God's promise in Philippians 4:19 says, "And my God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus." Whether that need is mental, spiritual, and emotional or for finances, strength, and a smile, God will provide. You just have to have faith and BELIEVE HIM.
- Give God the glory and praise - Instead of asking "Why me?", trust in God's perfect plan that He has for our lives. Trust Him and give Him the glory and praise that He is leading us on a path that will ultimately bring us to His goal: to be closer to Him. Praise God that He loves us so much that He just wants to be close to us! And all He wants in return is that we love Him back! Wow. Hallelujah LORD!
I didn't know until I read the book the depth that the Gosselin family loved God. How they trusted Him and let Him guide them. It was an absolutely inspiring book and I have no doubt that I will be referring to it often for my own reminders for strength. And I also have no doubt that God put this book in my path for a specific reason. And I promise I'm not doing pr for the book, but it would make an excellent Christmas present! Have a blessed Sunday!
"Thank you Lord for again revealing your promises for my life, not only through this book, but every day. Thank you for your perfect plan. I pray for the strength and grace to remember every day that You are in control and that You alone are bigger than anything I could possibly face. Continue to hold me tightly by the hand, pick me up when I fall, and carry me when necessary. In Jesus' Precious Holy Name, Amen."
Friday, December 19, 2008
We have payroll and such to do today, so I have some office work to do. But other than that it should be a pretty easy day...yay Friday!! I'm not really sure what the plans are for this weekend. Shouldn't be too much going on, just gearing up for Christmas! I hope ya'll are having a good, easy Friday!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Teehee! I love the movie "Elf!" It makes me smile. So I thought I would include a bit of it in today's post. I got up this morning and had a great 6-mile run. I think the running helps with my bone pain...either that or it's just starting to wear off. But, really, I think it's just as much from the exercise. Yay!
The boys are back at school today...can anyone say "Hallelujah!" *lol* But seriously, Christmas break starts at noon tomorrow and to add an extra week to it would be a little much! They were starting to get bored already. At least when the official break starts at one o'clock tomorrow there will tons of "holiday stuff" to keep us all busy.
Anyway, enjoy the little snippet from "Elf." Maybe it will add to your Christmas spirit!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
So we have been pretty low-key around here the last couple of days...not a whole lot going on. I started coming out of my chemo-funk yesterday afternoon...Thank You, God! My bone pain is lessening as well. I actually felt well enough this morning to put in a 5-mile run/walk, yippee!
The rest of the day looks pretty boring, really. I don't plan on going anywhere. Katie was asking to go to PB to eat at Maya's today, but I just don't feel like being around people. Do you ever get in those moods where you just want to hide out?? Usually the week after chemo I just want to lay low and not do the whole public thing.
I hope you all have a great Wednesday...only 8 days until Christmas!! Hope your shopping is almost done!
Monday, December 15, 2008
On another note, I haven't felt very well since my treatment on Friday. :-( I have pretty much felt like crap and I'm having bone pain from my Neulasta shot. My legs are aching, and I'm in a bad mood 'cause I don't feel like running. I wish I did! I need the endorphins that exercise gives me; my runner's high. I miss it terribly when I can't do it! But hopefully this won't last long and I will feel back to normal tomorrow. For now, I will just chill and relax...and let the chemo do it's work. That's where today's verse comes in:
"Moreover, the LORD your God will send the hornet against them, until those who are left and hide themselves from you perish." Deuteronomy 7:20
Friday, December 12, 2008
As soon as you step off the elevators at Siteman, there is a section of tiles that patients have painted. This is just a very small portion of what is all over the place up there. But I always stop and look for one or two that will touch my heart. The two I really liked this time were:
So Yay! Halfway through the chemo section of our treatment! Next appointment is Dec. 26 for a repeat echo of my heart to make sure that the Herceptin is not having any effect on my heart. And then on Jan. 2 for treatment #4! Once again, we will be up here with our friends; hers is another 3 day treatment and so we are going to come up and spend New Years Eve and Day with them and have a big ol celebration right there in her room! Sparkling grape juice and pizza sounds just right for us! We will make it fun for us all! They are so special to us! Hope you all have a great weekend!!
Yes, this stop made this girl very happy! Just as happy as going to a mall! And the fact that my hubby liked it as well made it even better. And next time I know what to expect and will have my list in hand...and try not to drool and look like I'm starstruck. The hot foods and salad bars they have there are soooo impressive! If we hadn't been in a hurry to get back to the hospital to eat with friends, we totally would've eaten there...bummer. Ok, next time! I've finally experienced a Whole Foods...I feel like I'm one of the gang! Teehee!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
When I got out of bed this morning, it was FREEZING in the house! Like, 60 in the bedroom and 58 in the living room! I crawled out from under the covers and promptly jumped right back in! Turns out, the fire in the boiler had gone out last night and we didn't have the backup heat turned on. But on the other hand, once I managed to get out of bed and get my running gear on, the run itself felt cool and wonderful! Tyler went outside and got it going again, so everything was nice and toasty in no time. He's such a little man, and a GREAT kid!
Yesterday, we had a mini-girl's day! Katie and I, and Michelle and Hailey went to PB and ate at Maya's, the BEST mexican food you could ever drool over. I was craving it so bad for the last 2 weeks so when the men decided they were going fishing, we took off! We hit Walmart, too and got a few things and looked at a sporting goods store for a cute new "treatment outfit." (Hey, if I can't use it as an excuse to get new clothes...!) I didn't find anything, though. But we are headed to STL on Wednesday afternoon to get our Christmas shopping finished up so I figured I would find something cute up there. We are also leaving early to spend "chemo time" with our friends who has her treatment for 3 days at a time. So we are going to be there with them, also. Then my 3rd treatment is Friday....I will be HALFWAY done with chemo after that! YAY! Praise God that He has carried us this far and I know He will continue to carry us! Hallelujah! I am also excited about having more STL-time because I want to go to Whole Foods! They have 2 in STL, and I am excited about going there! I know I will be so overwhelmed when I get in there though, so if anyone is well-versed in WF shopping I am open to advice for must-haves or whatever!
I hope everybody else is having a WARM and GREAT Sunday!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Yay it's Thursday! Two reasons I'm glad it's Thursday:
- Tomorrow is FRIDAY and
- Survivor comes on tonight!
I am so glad this week is almost over! I have been so busy this week: bookkeeping, helping friends move, and now dealing with a sick little one. I put Zachary to bed last night with motrin and a low grade temp but he woke up this morning fine. But I just had to go to school and get him because he is running a fever again and says his tummy feels funny. Ugh! Michelle was here for lunch so she checked him out before she went back to the clinic and said it's probably viral, nothing else seems to be going on. Hopefully it's a quick virus! And we have watched Survivor since it began several years ago, and we really like it. It's good family time for us!
Things I still need to do today:
- Bible Study
- Load of laundry in the dryer
- Take care of my little ones
- Get three more bookkeeping items sent to our CPA
- Check mail
- Pick up Tyler from school
- Fix dinner (don't know what we're having....hmmmmmm.......)
- Maybe walk for 30 more minutes later if I have time...not motivated to run today!
Wow, my list is bigger than I thought! Better get off here and get busy!! Happy Thursday!
"Whatever you do, do everything for God's glory." 1 Corinthians 10:31
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Yesterday was crazy-busy! I started off the morning with an 8 mile run, the furthest I've ran since my diagnosis 2 1/2 months ago! I felt so good afterwards! There's nothing like the runner's high! So after that, I got into paying bills...good thing I had the runner's high thing going on! Haha! That led to other computer work and bookwork that took me to midday. After I made Katie and I lunch, I made baked ziti so I could just pop it into the oven when we got home from PB from Tyler's eye dr. appointment, which was right after school. It takes 35-40 minutes to get there, and we drove straight there and straight home. The kids were wanting to stop at Dairy Queen and get snacks and treats, but I was sooooo worn out by that time that all I wanted to do was get home! After I cooked dinner, I piddled around with laundry and pick-up stuff, but nothing too serious...I was ready to collapse! But when we went to bed, I couldn't fall asleep (uh!!), but I felt so drawn to my book of Bible verses and a little talk with God. So I got up and read through some verses and thanked God in my prayers that He is ALWAYS available for us to talk to and He always hears us and listens. He is so faithful! After that, I went back to bed and slept like a baby until 6am when my hubby woke me up with a kiss as he was leaving for work. I went ahead and got up and did some more laundry and put away dishes, got my runnin' gear on and cranked out another 5 miles! Woohoo!
So far today I've had my run, done my Bible Study, "Believing God" by Beth Moore. If anyone is looking for direction or a closer walk with God, this study is a.m.a.z.i.n.g. I highly recommend it! My friend (who I requested prayers for last week) texted me this morning telling me that there was a song I just had to hear..."Tough" by Craig Morgan. I had heard this song before, but as I watched the video on YouTube I actually listened to the words, and it is beautiful! I tried to post the video here but it says it was "disabled by request." But if you have a chance to click over and listen to it (and watch!)...you will see what I'm talking about. My favorite verse of the song is as follows:
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Family Portrait...Katie always has to stand out!
Katie is 5!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
1) That Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior
2) My AMAZING husband, who is supportive and wonderful
3)The 3 most fantastic children in the world: Tyler, Zachary, and Katie
4) My family: my parents, in-laws, sisters, and brothers
5) The best friends a girl could ask for: Kim and Michelle are my bffs!
6) My health, and my family's health
7) To have a roof over my head and food on my table
8) FREEDOM! To be a citizen of the United States of America, the greatest nation in the world, where we are free to speak, choose, and live how we choose.
9) Natural beauty. We live in "God's Country," where we wake up to natural beauty every day: forests, fields, rivers, and springs.
10) It all begins and ends with God, so I am thankful for His everlasting love and sustaining Grace, without which I would be lost. Praise God for freedom from sin: that He loved us so much that He sent His son to die for us.
I hope everyone has a blessed Thanksgiving full of all the things YOU are thankful for!
"Enter His gates with thanksgiving, and His courts with praise! Give thanks to Him; bless His name!" Psalm 100:4
The boys are out of school early today so Katie and I will be headed into town early to run errands and such. We need to go by the post office, bank, and drug store today. I did get to run this morning, 5 miles...before I took the boys to school. And when I got back, I didn't see Riley (the puppy) sitting in the middle of the driveway and I think I clipped one of his back legs! He just kind of yelped and took off running ! Oh, so not what I needed...or him for that matter! I felt SO BAD!! :-( I think he's ok though. My hubby checked him out and Riley's up and running around like nothing happened so I guess we'll just watch him for a little while. Hopefully he's alright.
Well, if your Thanksgiving plans require travel somewhere, whether near or far, I pray for safe travels for you and yours. Have a wonderful (and delicious!) Thanksgiving!
"Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever." Psalm 107:1
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Happy Birthday to our sweet little princess, Katie! On November 25, 2003 at 9:10pm she made her entrance into the world and changed our lives forever! She was born a month early and still weighed in at 7 lbs. 3 oz. Thank goodness I didn't carry her full term...she would've been a ten-pounder! *lol* We were all in love with her from the moment we learned I was pregnant with her, and fell completely head over heels when we heard her first cry. Michelle was there for the delivery, being the most awesome L&D nurse you could ever ask for, and took the most amazing pictures! I can't believe our little princess is 5 today! It has gone by so fast! So today is all about her, of course...but then again, what day isn't?!? She woke up this morning and opened presents and now she is knee-deep in playdoh and a princess art set! I got up early this morning so I could get presents wrapped and set out on the dining room table. I figured while I was up and feeling good, I would go for a run. I did 4 miles before I even had to take the boys to school...good start to the day! I have a feeling the rest of the day is going to be spent painting toenails, fixing hair, and reading books...all things a princess enjoys! I hope ya'll enjoy your day as much as we will!
Monday, November 24, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
We have had a great Sunday. My first chemo treatment, 3 weeks ago, left me feeling like I had been hit by a car on days 3 and 4. But today, day 3, thankfully that has not been the case! I have been up and about doing my usual stuff today, even running! I started to just take it easy and go for a nice short walk, but of course, found myself jogging before I knew it! I did 4 miles! Praise God! I started week 7 of Beth Moore's Believing God this morning...I am just so blessed every time I listen to her.
I found this video on YouTube today. I just love this song...I can feel myself worshipping at the feet of our Lord every time I hear it. So I though I would include it today. You know, I took a spin class once on a Sunday afternoon with my sister, and the instructor played all praise and worship music, an ended with "I Can Only Imagine." Beautiful, truly. I hope you have had an happy Sunday as well!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Thank you to all of you who have offered prayers and thoughts for my friend. She found out that it is a recurrence of non-Hodgkin's lymphoma, only 5 months after she finished chemo and only 3 months after a clean pet scan. Ugh. So her protocol is for her to do more chemo, a stem cell transplant, and then radiation. The only thing I could think to tell her was that we are a team. We are going to beat this together. And the Lord worked it out perfectly that my next 2 chemo treatments and her 1st two chemo treatments are at the same time! And by the time she does radiation, we will be also ready to start radiation. So that will awesome to have somebody to share the trips and the experience with...although I wish she wasn't having to do any of it! But, you must look at the positive. Attitude is everything with something like this. You can't let it drag you down, or let it beat you. You have to fight, fight, fight! So she and I are gearing up to FIGHT TOGETHER! Hope ya'll have a wonderful Saturday!
Friday, November 21, 2008
My in-laws got to the house this morning to do the "grandparent thing" today. They took the boys to school and then Nana Norma and Katie were going to the dollar store to do some serious shopping. It's Katie's fave store, ya know! And then I think they were going to bake a cake and do girl-stuff. They will have a ball today. And they they will pick up the kids after school, too. They are making dinner for us as well. Praise God for helping hands!
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance." James 1:2
Thursday, November 20, 2008
The day we went to Siteman for our first dr appointment, she and her hubby went with us for moral support and to show us around...just to be there with us. The evening before we left, she gave me a copy of the Serenity Prayer to keep with me:
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Today started out with another great, and cool, 7-miler. I have done 26 miles already this week; my goal was to get to 30 before I have to go have my 2nd treatment on Friday...looks like I'm going to make it! Praise God, He continues to give me the strength that I need, I get my dose from Him daily. He is always walking (or running!) right beside me, holding my hand...or carrying me if necessary. Thank you, Lord, for continuing to guide and direct me in all ways! There's not tons to do around here today. A load of laundry or two, and just the general picking up stuff. I think I am going to make chicken fettuccine alfredo for dinner tonight. Michelle has an awesome recipe, tastes just like Olive Garden (Yum!), so I am going to call her to get it. And what italian meal would be complete without garlic bread and salad...yeah I'm all up in it today! Hope ya'll have a wonderful Wednesday!
"Take delight in the LORD, and He will give you your heart's desires." Psalm 37:4
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
After breakfast I did a lesson in my Bible study and began to clean, clean, clean. I did the floors, dusting, and finished the laundry. Whew! So now I am sitting here relaxing for a minute in my peaceful house, before going to get the boys and the ruckus begins! But I enjoy the ruckus most of the time...it makes our house home-y! I hope everyone is having a great Tuesday!
Monday, November 17, 2008
And I kept saying that I didn't think I would be rockin' the scarf...but I think I totally will be! I really like it. It is so comfortable and soft. This black and white one is my fave!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Then today, we had planned on going to my mom and dad's for dinner, but Jack called me on his way home from the woods (it's opening weekend of deer season here) and he had thrown his neck out while bending over to pick up his deer! Oh boy. My dad had to drive them home, and by the time he got here he was in so much pain. So I gave him some of the pain medicine that I had left over from my surgery and got him propped up in bed, alternating heat and cold ever since. He is still not having any relief, I think what he really needs is a muscle relaxer but we don't have any of those! Darn it! I pray he feels better tomorrow. But before he called, I was at Lacey's salon getting my hair cut again. It is going, going, almost gone! It has been really thinning and shedding the last couple of days so I thought if I wanted to experiment with another shorter haircut, I had better do it today! If it even made it through the cut! It did, but it won't last much longer. Before we know it, it will all be gone! I'm just trying to hold on as long as I can, while still being in control and shaving it while it is still a choice!
This evening I wrote some of my favorite Bible verses on notecards, as a part of my daily Bible study "homework". It's going to be great way for me to keep my inspiration close at hand. What a great idea! I'm very excited to work on it some more again tomorrow. And I also hope tomorrow will bring much less "excitement" around here!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
I got up this morning and did another 5 miles. After I got cleaned up and ate breakfast I changed the sheets on our bed, trying to rid the house of germs! At wake up time, it was pretty cloudy and gloomy looking but it's supposed to get prettier as the day goes on and reach a high of 65. Perfect! Wish everybody felt well enough to get out and enjoy it! I hope it's pretty wherever you are!
"Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28
I still have my hair as of now. I am watching it very closely these days! Everybody I've talked to says 14 days-ish is when it starts to fall out, today is day 13. I feel kinda like I am waiting for the other shoe to drop! Of course I would prefer NOT to lose it, but I know that's probably not likely. So if it's going to fall out, I kinda wish it would start already so I can break out the clippers and just shave it...get it over with! It's driving me crazy waiting and not knowing what it's going to do. So we'll see. I know that God knows exactly what's going to happen, and it gives me so much comfort that He is in control and He is forever faithful. I will continue to lean on Him and believe. Hope ya'll have a great Wednesday!
"Let us hold on to the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful." Hebrews 10:23
"God is our refuge and strength, a helper who is always found in times of trouble." Psalm 46:1
Monday, November 10, 2008
So our weekend was extremely low-key! It was spent passing the motrin around and taking temperatures...yeehaw. I hope ya'll had a better weekend than we did! This, too, shall pass.....
Friday, November 7, 2008
TODAY I STARTED MY DAY OFF WITH A RUN!!!!!
Yes, you read that right, a RUN! I was feeling so good when I woke up this morning so I got up and put on my workout wear...think I surprised my hubby! Then I trotted off downstairs to the treadmill and punched out 4 miles. It.felt.awesome.
Then I got showered up and had breakfast and went to the office with my hubby to do payroll. Another thing off the list...check. I have got my billing done for the day...check. Sent my faxes...check. I still need to do my Bible study, some laundry, and clean my bathroom but now I'm tired! Ha! No, I will sit down and do my Bible study, but the cleaning may wait. ;o) The rest of the day is pretty slow. Katie and I will go and get the boys at school later and check mail and all that jazz. I think the boys are going fishing tonight so she and I may have the house to ourselves. Girls night! Have a great Friday everyone!
"Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The LORD, the LORD, is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
So far this morning I have worked on my Bible study. I started week 5 of "Believing God" by Beth Moore. Powerful stuff I'll tell ya! It seems like she is speaking directly to me each and every time. Praise God! Today's lesson highlighted 2 beloved verses:
I know I have posted the second one before, but it means so much to me that I had to include it again. I am so grateful that God has me in His grip and will not let go. And He reminds me time after time, "I got this." I only pray that my grip on Him is as tight as His is on me. Have a great day!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
I'm not quite sure what today will bring as far as activities go, but I know there is no basketball game tonight because Tyler's team lost the first game of their tournament last night. :-( I think all the boys were just worn out. His first jr. high season has come to an end.....man how time has flown! So, no basketball means we will probably be sitting in front of the television watching the election coverage this evening. I'm actually excited to watch it! It is a historic election no matter your view or how you look at it: we will either have the first female vice-president or the first African-American president of the United States. Wow. I just pray that regardless of who is elected, that he will look to God for guidance as he leads this great country of ours into a new age. I pray that when he says "God Bless America" that he in turn, blesses God and gives Him the Glory and Honor for his position. I pray that he will never take for granted the great privilege that has been given to him and that he will lead us with dignity and strength. That is my prayer going into this election day...hope ya'll have a good one!
Sunday, November 2, 2008
"The LORD will guide you always; He will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail." Isaiah 58:11
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Before treatment started yesterday, we met with our drs. First the surgeon, who said the incision looked great and is healing nicely and gave us our beautiful path report that stated that no residual cancer had been found in what she re-excised. Praise God over and over! She also told us that after chemo and radiation our recurrence rate is only 5%! So low! And that she will be monitoring me with mammograms and breast mris from now on. Perfect. Then it was on to our oncologist and we had tons of question for him! Seriously, like a whole page full. So we talked for forever about them and then he told us that my echo that I had on Tuesday was a little off! What?! Well, yeah that's pretty much what they said, too. I guess a normal heart when it squeezes and pumps the blood out, will pump out anywhere from 50-75%, mine was pumping 50%. They said for someone older, it would be normal, but for a healthy 30 yr old who runs 30 miles a week, they were just really surprised. They said they didn't know why it was that way, but they are just going to monitor it very closely. They are going to do a repeat echo after my 3rd treatment. They are doing this because the Herceptin, the most crucial of the drugs I am taking, can cause this number to go down. And mine is already at the lower end of normal. So please be in super-prayer that either the first test was a fluke (they told me the test should take 45min-1 hr and it only took the tech 20 min), or that if it is right, that it is just my normal and that the Herceptin will have no effect on it. It is a small percentage that it will affect it, but it is possible. And this drug is the one that essentially makes my condition CURABLE. I am going to stay on my knees that there is only better numbers or no change for the next echo. So I now have a cardiologist on my team, too. I must say, though, that they are so thorough. I love knowing that I have a whole team on my side...cool! Are you ready for the third shocker of the day??! I know, how much more can you handle, right??! We were getting all our scripts filled there at the pharmacy in the treatment area (so handy) and our insurance company was denying payment of the $6000 (yeah not a typo) Neulasta shot that I have to have the day after chemo. It is to boost the white blood count that is beat down after chemo. So finally, about 30 mins before we were getting ready to leave, they sent approval, Praise Jesus!!!, but said that we would have to pay a percentage. Now our prescriptions are in tiers $15/30/45/60...but this shot is some sort of specialty drug and our part is $770 per shot! Oh my gosh! Yes, they totally paid the majority, but we were in no way prepared for this! And then all my other scripts were, or course, in the $60 tier, so by the time we had left we had wrote a check for $1000 worth of meds. Depressing. So worth it, but man! At least I only need 5 more of those Neulasta shots. I guess I will be getting good drugs for Christmas! Ha! But oh well! God will take care of us. God doesn't give us more than we can handle, and (BONUS!) He helps us handle what we have been given. Praise God!
The Lord has guided us through this entire experience. We have taken hold of His hand tightly and are not about to doubt what miracles He can perform. We are not wavering in unbelief, but believing that God will lead us through the fire, unscathed...and actually come out better on the other side. I am already a better and different person than I was 6 weeks ago. I have learned to put God first before ANYTHING and to trust Him without doubt...my relationship with Jesus Christ has grown so much. I value my time with my family more, and I appreciate my friends for everything they have done for us. I have learned to completely rely on God and trust that He will provide.
"Thank you, Lord, for using cancer to draw me closer to You and put all my perspectives in the right place. Please let this time in our lives, as well as the rest of them, be used for your Glory and that others will be able to see you through me. In Jesus Precious Name I pray. Amen."
Thursday, October 30, 2008
After that, I was feeling MUCH better! Enjoying the beautiful day, SO LOVING my new haircut and back to smiling! :-) Once we got back home, I did my Week 4 Day 3 homework in my Bible study. I am always uplifted when I dive into His Word; it seems no matter what the lesson may be about, it always seems to speak to just me. Like it was tailor made for me...duh, it totally is! teehee! Today's lesson was about Noah and how he had faith and stepped out in that faith despite the evilness, taunts, and jeers he heard from humanity around him. He was faithful to God, and God rewarded him. Praise God! Praise Him for the endless promises His word hold for us! You know, though, when I was reading Genesis 6 about Noah I couldn't help but keep picturing the movie "Evan Almighty!" Maybe because it was just on the other day and I watched it...twice. But how God kept trying to tell Evan what He wanted but Evan just didn't get it...his alarm clock kept going off at 6:14 am when it was set for a different time, his new congressional license plate was GEN 614, and even someone calling his office with a baby announcement said the baby weighed 6lbs. 14 oz. God was trying to get His attention, Evan just didn't get it! I am so thankful that God is relentless on us when He wants something from us, which is always! He NEVER gives up. Never tires of telling us again, and again, and AGAIN. He is constantly showing us how much He loves us and wants to be close to us, NO MATTER what we have done or how we have lived! He just wants to be close to us! It is like a parents' love times infinity! How awesome is that??! God is so good! Thankful doesn't even begin to describe how I feel! Praise God that He never gives up on us!
From Psalm 91:
1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.
11 For He will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
14 "Because He loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation."
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
What a difference a haircut can make! I feel F.A.N.T.A.S.T.I.C! Actually, strangely, I feel grown up! 13 years of marriage and 3 kids and I get a new haircut and feel grown up! LOL! I can't believe I didn't do it before! Now I'm kinda mad that it's gonna fall out! Ha! Hey, but at least at this short length, it won't take as long to grow back out to here. Lacey did such a great job cutting it and Michelle and my mom were sitting there going, "Why didn't you cut it sooner??" But it was such fun! All the kids took a turn cutting a big chunk of hair off...they really enjoyed that! There was so much hair on the floor! Wow, I bet I lost weight, seriously. And I can feel the wind on my neck...cool!
Check out all that hair! Geez!!
Today was SUCH a busy day! I had all three kids in PB...dentist for me, orthodontist for Tyler, and an eye exam for Zachary. Katie was just along for the ride. Thrown into our to-do list, was new jeans for Zachary, prescriptions to pick up, and a Walmart list a mile long. I was so glad when Tyler said he didn't have to be back by 3 for practice. I could've made it, but it would have been pushing it! But we had a good day. It was very normal...which was very nice.
I was running this morning, listening to some praise and worship music, trucking along, when a song from my childhood popped into my head. It was a song that we always sang at revival when David and Geneva Bentley would come to our church once a year. It went,
"The Lord has not given us a spirit of fear. The Lord has not given us a spirit of fear. The Lord has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and a sound mind."
As soon as I finished 4 miles, I hopped off and googled it (!), so I could see where it came from...it's 2 Timothy 1:7. Thank goodness for internet access! Ha! Anyway, it is perfect of course, as any thing in God's Word is, and spoke to me, as anything in God's Word does, if you listen to it. That anxiety I'm feeling about diagnosis or treatment is not what God wants for me, it is the devil that gives us fear. God gives is FAITH! And faith is much stronger than fear, anyday! Praise God for that! Praise God that we can count on Him because He is with us always!
More and better pics tomorrow...my phone is being cantankerous tonight!
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