**Edited to add: I was going through a list of old posts this morning and came across this one. I remember writing it, but never published it...I don't know why I didn't. Maybe because I was just getting my thoughts in order for myself, or maybe I thought DID hit publish, but didn't. Who knows?! At any rate, after rereading it, I thought I would publish it today. I think one of the neatest things about blogs is that you can revisit and see where your mind was and what was going on in your life from any given time. So these are some of my thoughts from June 2009, still with 4 months of Herceptin left to go. ~xoxo
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When we face trials and hard times in our lives do you ever ask yourself "Why??"
"Why is this happening to me?"
"What did I do?"
"How could God let this happen?"
I know I asked these questions when I was first diagnosed with breast cancer back in September as a 30 year old wife and mother of 3 young children. I must tell you, though, that I didn't ask them for long. Because from the beginning, I believed that God was in control and He had a plan that was much bigger than anything I could ever imagine. What His Will would be for my life, I didn't know...what my future holds, I'm not sure...but one thing I do know is that I have the right Man in charge. I don't have any control, and to tell you the truth: I DON'T WANT IT! Have you seen some of things He has to deal with?! I don't want that burden! Nor could I handle it. I trust in Him completely and am at peace with whatever He chooses for my life. Do I hope and pray that I will be here to see my children grow up and sit in rocking chairs on the front porch with my hubby when we're 90? Of course!! I pray that He will have me do great things for Him right here on earth until He calls me Home at a ripe old age, of say, 100!
"Why is this happening to me?"
"What did I do?"
"How could God let this happen?"
I know I asked these questions when I was first diagnosed with breast cancer back in September as a 30 year old wife and mother of 3 young children. I must tell you, though, that I didn't ask them for long. Because from the beginning, I believed that God was in control and He had a plan that was much bigger than anything I could ever imagine. What His Will would be for my life, I didn't know...what my future holds, I'm not sure...but one thing I do know is that I have the right Man in charge. I don't have any control, and to tell you the truth: I DON'T WANT IT! Have you seen some of things He has to deal with?! I don't want that burden! Nor could I handle it. I trust in Him completely and am at peace with whatever He chooses for my life. Do I hope and pray that I will be here to see my children grow up and sit in rocking chairs on the front porch with my hubby when we're 90? Of course!! I pray that He will have me do great things for Him right here on earth until He calls me Home at a ripe old age, of say, 100!
I read something this morning in my daily devotional that spoke volumes to me. Maybe it will help those of you who may be dealing with a difficult circumstances in your own life:
"God allows circumstances for two reasons: to reveal areas in my life where I am not like Christ (see Romans 8:29-30) and to use me to bring His light into a dark world (see Matthew 5:14-16)."
I felt very strongly about this when I read it this morning and knew immediately that I wanted to post it. Like I said, maybe it will touch one person...
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That is awesome Erica. I'm so glad you found it!
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